HER WORDS

This is to the girl who knew what the light used to feel like and lost it. The girl who probably has never seen the light. The girl who is still looking for it because she knows she is meant to be happy. 

This is for the girl who keeps trying to wake up every day, knowing that one day it will be worth it to still be alive. I know your future. I see you. You are a work of art even in the shadow.

You will not be edited. You will not be rewritten. You will be explored. All of your angles tell a different story, and each word is worth being looked at individually. You are who you always were. The truth of your existence remains true no matter how you choose to exist and how you choose to honor each season of your life. Your life’s work is exactly where you wanted it to be, and I am honored to be the one to display it for you.

16

I lived you before 

In a soft flame between my fingers 

A light at the end of my tunnel 

My world au bout de ta lumière 

I have lived you before

I knew nothing then 

Nothing 

but the joy of chasing 

So I chased what I was always meant to want  

I lived you before 

In each stroke of my pen 

Every battement the cil 

Every soupir avant de fermer les yeux 

I have lived you before 

My cosmos hanging in your eyes 

The door to a universe I almost want to touch 

My universe yours to explore 

Has the grass always been this blue 

The trees this green 

The air this sweet

17

I thought I had to go back 

To the sundress, rose petals on my bare feet

Laughing and dancing to my old tunes

To feel the sun again

Back to the bright window 

Wildflowers in my favorite thrifted vase 

Cake in our oven 

Icing on your cheeks 

I thought I needed a treasure chest 

Full of letters and a wax seal with your name 

Memories of how I once felt 

Conclusion of how I'll never feel again

Thoughts of you come and go 

A never-ending painting 

The colors undone 

I play pause and rewind

The smiles in my records 

I play pause rewind my wishes

Play, pause edit till reality disappears